I failed to even be the first to wish you on your birthday.

I failed to be there to accompany you when you were stuck in the lift, both times.

I failed to be there to skype with you whenever you wanted me to.

I broke many promises.

Like the one where I promised to chat with you all thru your 'undang' talk.

And the one where I was supposed to wake you up.

Or the one where I promised to send Wonka Nerds back.

But above all I failed to show you how much you meant to me.

Perhaps it's too late now.

Perhaps you don't even visit this site anymore.

But for everything I have ever done that has hurt you.

Or broke your heart.

Or made you wonder why you ever bothered in the first place.

I am sorry.

And I know I don't deserve you.

And i will always be thankful, for the memories that will never be forgotten.

You mean the world to me.

You treat me as guilty until proven innocent.

You threw my gifts to you.

You deleted me off your 'friends' list.

You removed my comment on your profile picture.

You untagged me from your pictures.

You removed your blog post about me.

You message me when you feel a little lonely.

When you're not you treat me coldly.

yet in my eyes, you're still the most beautiful girl in the world.

Always.

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but I can't help but think about the day you'll have moved on completely and not miss me anymore. In fact I wish really hard for that day to never come.

But I cannot be selfish anymore for I only want you to be happy...

And I will have to be strong :)

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Seeing that I actually can not access your facebook profile to see the dress you wore to Hanna's birthday like you promised hurt me a little more than I expected. So did your unfollowing on twitter. But I want you to know that I understand...

Today I cry no more.

You're still the most beautiful girl in the world.

Why go through so much heartache and pain, lose years and years of friendships and relationships, when all it takes is just to conform with the norm?

Because there are some things... that once you know... which makes it harder to just go with the flow...

And some things are better left unsaid.

Only God and his almighty goodness will prevail...

The pain has been replaced by numbness.

It's true.

Being forced to not miss you is something I know I must do, yet cannot do.

It's the worst feeling in the world.

I hope no one else has to go thru this.

:'(

Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya

I'm sorry for ever making you sad.

I'm sorry I've become so emotional.

I'm sorry I'm being so stubborn.

I'm sorry I'm being so unfair.

I'm sorry I'm being so selfish.

I'm not sorry I still love you.

Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

          how i'll be okay, as long as you promise me to head to sleep everynight smiling like that.... :-)